Below are the 17 most recent journal entries recorded in ledunc's LiveJournal:

Saturday, January 26th, 2008
2:11 pm	Mr. Ledger, you are not alone. Okay, this is an old video, but I have rediscovered my disgusted fascination with the Westboro Baptist Church. I saw this well over a year ago and was astounded by the mere existence of a group of people so incredibly hypocritical, judgemental and inhuman. (Comment on this)
Monday, December 10th, 2007
6:01 pm	Ever feel like your life is going in a circle? Like every time you try something new, something adventurous, something exciting, something dangerous, you just end up back exactly where you started? I do. In trying to get over my fear of the unknown I just end up reminding myself why I'm afraid and going back inside. Well FUCK IT! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 5th, 2007
3:40 pm	You all knew it would happen. I finally came out of the closet. For I have found my soul mate. He's awesome, and infinitely talented on his pictured violin. He makes me even happier than the ice on my new background. Thank you, Bryan.....I'd be lost without you. How well do you know your boyfriend? His age: 21. He's older.....it's kinda hot. His birthday: 9/23/85 How long have you been together? Since the day I laid eyes on him almost 3 years ago, we've been together in our minds, our wishes. How long did you know each other before you started dating? We've never been out on a date. We just work together and.......other things. What physical feature attracted you to him first? His oversized Star Wars T-Shirt. Hair color: Luscious black. How did you meet? Mike unintentionally hooked us up at work years back. We both felt a huge connection but were unable to express our feelings toward one another until far too recently. How serious is the relationship? As serious as being charged by a fucking rhino. I put on my robe and wizard hat. Bryan likes that. Are you "in love"? Like I have never been before. Not even Cher is as important to me. Do your parents like him? My mum's gonna love him. My dad doesn't know yet. But I'd sooner see him burn in hell than be torn apart from my one and only. Does it matter? Not at all. I'd kill them for him if he asked me to. Which he probably will. He IS Korean. They still have their nukes. It doesn't matter. Does he let you wear his pants? Yes, although they tend to drag a little. Do you have a shirt of his that you sleep with? No, but I do have some more....interesting apparel. Does he have a temper? Haha, no. He's as gentle as can be. Can't imagine making him angry. Are you happy to be with him? Are you believing this? Then you know the answer. What did the two of you do today? He picked me up. We also like to role-play :D What is he doing right now? Giving me a backrub. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 24th, 2007
3:05 am	Illusionism This never was the life I chose Didn't intend to be disliked by those who disagree Learning not to give a shit might set me free But look at what they've made me I fear it's now too late to change these ways Perhaps this really isn't just a phase I'm sick of all the talking Watching everybody walking with the sheep The ones I love are sending me to sleep Every effort made is wasted Any victory I've tasted has been sweet But will someday bring me crashing to my feet Every time I try to stand This prison wraps its hands around my mind Reminds me who's in charge, to stay in line But those ideals are so contrived I feel I cannot survive another day Though I'd sooner take my life than walk away Because I feel I'm even worse I'm the one who is averse to what they do And I act as if I haven't got a clue But my actions aren't misplaced Nor am I disgraced And I will never take your baits Just to save some fucking face Current Mood: awake (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 21st, 2007
3:09 pm	I love my job. And Bryan, too :) Me: We've made $400 so far, but we should probably try and double it. We've been havin' a shitty week. Bryan: Yeah, but Larry will still be pleased with this day. Me: Wouldn't hurt to make some more though. Bryan: Yeah. Wouldn't hurt for you to give him a hand-job once in a while. Me: Yeah......y'know, it's weird when I do. It feels okay but.....it's not you Bryan. It's not the same. Any more gay Bryan posts and things are going to look a little suspect. Current Mood: Homoerotic Current Music: My Sharona - The Knack (3 Comments |Comment on this)
11:27 am	A quick one Distance Day or night Seems I can't discern a difference I'm no closer to the core Try as I might It only serves to further distance Drive me closer to the floor I'll take flight Even be hopeful for an instant Perhaps my body might endure But, oh! my mind The way it loves to make me listen To what I've always been so sure Current Mood: hungry Current Music: QOTSA - Make it Wit Chu (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 15th, 2007
3:14 pm	This so isn't what it sounds like lewislovesalice (1:20:56 PM): ok well they are all asian and women are pretty much expected to obey so when i come over there talking shit and talking down to him in front of everyone... it's a big deal ledunc85 (1:21:15 PM): yeah, i know what you mean lewislovesalice (1:21:33 PM): buddha can kiss my fucking ass ledunc85 (1:21:37 PM): lmao, right on! lewislovesalice (1:22:11 PM): i think they are just mad b/c they all have little penises ledunc85 (1:22:05 PM): yeah, i have a lot of asian friends, ive seen that first hand Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: it's all in my head. that's not a song. there's no music playing. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
12:54 pm	Because Bryan did it. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 9th, 2007
5:15 pm	So I finally caved.... And got an AIM account. After 6 years of being told I needed to get one, I finally have a decent reason. Since I'm a little clueless about the way it works, can everyone who sees this add me? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 18th, 2007
11:32 am	Work is weird It's weird having worked in the same place for such a long time. It feels more like my home than my own house does. I often find myself getting frustrated being here because every day is basically the same but whenever I take time off I really have to get back or I miss it too much. However.....it has some pretty strange effects. For instance, when I came in this morning and saw that we still had the Superman Returns bust I knew I'd sold the previous day I stood in bewilderment staring at it wondering how the hell it got there. "Maybe Larry bought another one" I thought. Even though he hates Superman. Wait....why would he do that? That's when I realised I dreamt the entire thing. I dreamt an entire day of work. That's horrible. I've even answered my phone "Blast From the Past" if someone calls me and wakes me up. *sigh* But I could never give up free Comic Con. Occasional free food and merchandise. It's fucking awesome. Current Mood: happy Current Music: Battle of the Heroes (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 17th, 2007
2:52 pm	Grrrrrr.... You know what sucks? Having your car impounded. You know what sucks even more? Paying $704 to get it out. You know what sucks even more than that? The Holocaust. Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: Lap Ti Nek (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, July 9th, 2007
1:26 pm	Sicko Before I start on this post, I must say this: I'm listening to Regina Spektor's 20 Years of Snow. And it's giving me fucking goosebumps. Now I will say this: America - WAKE UP! Go and watch Sicko by Michael Moore. Even if you don't like him as a lot of people seem not to. In the past I have found his films a little one-sided. Yeah I know his goal is only to show his point of view, not to be neutral. But sometimes he would theorise too much or say some pretty unreasonable shit, compromising the believability of the rest of his claims. Sicko, however is a movie based on pure fact. Sure, some things were scripted for impact, he made some pretty ballsy moves just to grab the attention of the audience. But the Anti-American attacks were not at all theory or speculation. Just facts. The movie, in case you're not aware, focuses on what is wrong with the American health care system. It's a list I am NOT going to try to write down here, because really, what's wrong is that it's focused on making money instead of making people healthy. That's a HUGE factor in why despite being the richest, it's one of the sickest countries on the entire western hemisphere. Apparently doctors are actually paid MORE for refusing to treat the extremely sick, if said treatment is going to cost their hospital lots of money. That's fucking disgusting. Especially as England, my nation, is one of the countries they use as a parallel. In England, not only is health care free (as well as medication for under 18-year olds and over 65-year olds), there are currently being constant improvements made to further help people. For instance, if ambulances are unavailable in certain parts of the country, the hospital will send a taxi and pay the fucking fee, and reimburse you for NOT having available transport. So what the fuck am I doing here? Why am I living in a country that talks about its sick and poor in terms of how much money they can make and save when at home I had a government that genuinely gave a shit about me. If we really are just a gold-mine to the hospital system, who we are led to believe care about us, what the fuck does the government, who we know DOESN'T give a shit about us think? Suddenly this makes some of those seemingly ridiculous 9-11 conspiracy theories much more realistic. I'm quite afraid of these people. A constant claim of Americans is that socialised medicine is a scary idea. What, like socialised school, postal service etc. What makes medicine any different? Giving medical companies absolute control is like big business all over again. America should have learned THAT lesson 200 fucking years ago!! What the fuck is going on here. Inhalers for serious lung conditions are 5 cents in Cuba. Why $120 in America? Why don't people want somebody to put a stop to this? Why do so many idiots in this country make fun of Canada for their beliefs when they are FAR closer to a democracy than this fucking joke of an administration. And what makes me the most sick of all is that when I talk to my American friends about this they're bound to tell me I'm being unrealistic, or not to believe it all. It's astounding to me that "liberals" in America are just as blind as everybody else. I have to go to people raised outside this nuthouse to even get some recognition that any of this COULD be true. Wake the fuck up people! I know some of my friends will tell me that I should fuck off back to England. Well y'know what? I will. Fuck this country. Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: Regina Spektor - 20 Years of Snow (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, July 6th, 2007
1:59 pm	This is quite depressing...and extremely long. It's odd to lose someone who used to be close to you... Until just the other day, the only two people I'd ever lost were my great-grandparents. My great grandad died when I was 9 and way too young to understand what had happened. My great gran died last year and that was a bit worse for me but....well I'd seen her about five times in the previous decade. It was a little sad but I barely knew her. However on Sunday my dad gave me a really horrible bit of news. Our friend Pat Ginn had just died and though my dad was going home the next day, he would miss the funeral. See, Pat was the mother of Richie and Steve, the first two friends my brother and I ever had in our neighbourhood. Until we switched schools when I was 8 we hung out with those kids almost every day playing their Sega Genesis and trying to stay up late. Their mum would always be there, cooking us food, bringing us juice and whatever else. She was the most kind-hearted woman I've ever really known. When I was going through that awful ordeal of moving here to the states, she was the only one who offered me any comfort instead of just chiding me for being such a fuck-up. It was the best thing anyone did for me in that messed up frame of mind I was in. I haven't seen her since but I won't ever forget that. So, when we got a message about a year ago saying that her frequent headaches had turned out to be a brain tumour and that doctors weren't sure if they could make things right, you'd think I'd be the first person to, y'know, at least send her a letter or something. I really meant to. A couple of months back she was finally told that the treatment wasn't gonna cure her, so she might as well just stop. Imagine being told you're going to die, so just give up trying...... I don't want to. This was followed by almost complete blindness and partial loss of speech. Just..terrible. How could that happen to such a great person? So why didn't I send her a letter saying this directly? I have asked myself this question many times. Because now, once again, it's too late. She won't have been bitter about not hearing much from me, but I KNOW it would've made her happy to hear from me more. ........ Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Seatbelts - The Real Folk Blues (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 29th, 2007
2:28 pm	Oil and Water Brandon Boyd (of Incubus)sings: "We've been dancing on a volcano. Duncan: Not the smartest idea. Bryan: Yeah..maybe they should stop. I almost pissed myself!!! Current Mood: amused Current Music: Incubus - Oil and Water (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 27th, 2007
11:23 am	Because Bryan and Mike did it. Disorder Rating Paranoid: Low Schizoid: Low Schizotypal: Low Antisocial: Low Borderline: Low Histrionic: Moderate Narcissistic: Low Avoidant: Low Dependent: Low Obsessive-Compulsive: High -- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information -- Weird....I took this last Friday and got slightly different results. Oh well. Go OCD! Current Mood: blank Current Music: QOTSA - Souture up Your Future (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 23rd, 2007
2:45 pm	I started writing raps again My dad warned me before the success had started Jealousy could tear me and all my friends apart I didn't hear him over the trends and parties that began to start me on a bad road running It's funny the first time your hands hold money you'll be circling the block buying shit you don't need Blow it every night 'cause you drink and smoke weed and when you run out you'll gravitate towards greed You wanna be driving that Aston Martin But got Ford money and a trash apartment and your ass is walkin' in nothin' less than Ralph lauren So tell that to your landlord Or the cops when they catch up to you for bank fraud It's happened before and you are not exempt Don't flaunt it like you've got a lot to spend Cos I'll catch you circling the block again Current Mood: bland Current Music: Fucking Yu-Gi-Oh kids.... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 21st, 2007
2:03 pm	Heroes (couple of spoilers...but the show ended friggin months ago, loser) Yesterday was a great day. After drinking a couple of pints of water to flush the previous night's beer out of me, I dragged myself into my car and drove over to my good (somewhat insane) friend Brett's house. Of ^^this^^ he is responsible! And we watched Heroes for 12 hours. It'd been a really long time since I did anything like that. Afterwards, rather than feeling numb, like my dad suggested, I actually felt....inspired to go on another one of my old video game binges where I spend the entire weekend playing probably Resident Evil 4 and never leaving my room except to eat. Cos y'know, I can pee out the window. It's a great show, Heroes. I am really excited to watch the rest of them, hopefully on Sunday. I really wanna know what happens to Ando! I can't believe Hiro just let him go like that....so heartbreaking. If I were a great big nancy, sissy boy I might have just cried a little. But I'm a man,dammit! Oh yeah, Claire lives in my brother's apartment building. I watched her play pool. Be jealous. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: The Beatles - White Album (1 Comment |Comment on this)